now i reali understand that all i can do now was accept all these and move on ... i have decided tt noe i haf to face myself n move on ... learn to move on n acccept the past, accept that i and dino was over long ago and i was the one who dump him ...

though i am waiting for him n may give him another change but all was over all was the past ... his limit was over yesterday ...i waited all the way till his Bday i dun wish to b like tis anymore ... think a part of me haf let this idea of waitin for him die off le ba ... and at the other part of me i hope n wish n pary that the good old days that i use to haf will come back ... it's a fight between my thoughts ba dun u think so ???

mayb in a few more mth's time i'll b able to reali put all these the past n moved on ... i haf kind of accept times that i had being alone n realise that actuali i was reali very fortunate that i had so many people around me who cares and loves me alot ... therefore for me for them for people who cares for me i think it was time for me to reali dump the past and move on ... though i wasnt sure how long will it take but i belief one day i'll b able to do it no matter how long it'll take it'll still happen one day ... one fine day it'll happen even if it takes years for me to move on i'll still try n belief that one day all these hope n stuff it'll die off in me n give up all hope that i once used to hold for him ....

now everytime i talked abt dino or think abt him tears will pour out and my heart seems to be bleeding ... the only reason why was that everytime all these happen deep inside my mind seems like there was a voice telling me ... remember this between u all everything was over everything he had moved on with his life and so u had to do it too ... everytime i hear this it hurts me ...

sometimes i reali wonder how come people have to get so hurt ??? how did all these pain come about ??? why can love cause all these ???

yesterday kelvin asked me if i belief in loving someone forever ... and the answer to it was i do belief in loving someone forever i do belief ... and a part of me actuali wanted to answer him that i'll b able to love dino for the rest of my life if only he is willing to let me love him forever ... but he never allow it to happen and i am also the one who is partly to be blame ... isnt it ???

if no one can love someone forever den it's impossible that that poeple will feel the pain ... i belief after a long time being together we people will ask ourselves mayb we no longer love this person anymore anybe it was jus that i was too used to it ... and when new people came in as things between the couple came to stable down sometimes we'll feel that it was too boring like tis therefore we try to spice up life let people come in between us just to see if the other party still love u not or are u still able to move on with someone else ....

but no one realise that all these will bring pain n destroy the relationship that is actuali everythin to them ...

after a break up after that person reali left u den u'll realise how important that person was once to u but u neg it all cos u are taking that person who is beside u for granted ...

if u no longer love someone u'll never feel the pain after leaving mayb u'll feel uneasy all cos u are too used to that person but u'll not feel hurt if u dun love that person therefore i do belief that there is everlasting love ...

love can last for a lifetime ...

too bad this love that i once belief in never last forever as i thought it will though it brought me hurt that was soooo sooooo soooooo deep but still i'll try to overcome this pain and accept it and also move on though i dunno how long will it take me to actuali able to do so ... but no matter how long i'll try ... cos i felt if tis was nothin to him i can also do the same ... i'll try my very best very very very best to actuali accept someone else one day and move on happily ever after ....

though i dunno how long before this day will come but i'll wait n try to make this day come faster =)