i reali misses him soooo much till the extend i asked my friend if can help me go find him n pass him some stuff actuali wanted to pass him his Bday present but everyone beside me objects it so i also not sure wat i should do ...

should i or should i not ??? i noe he is movin on very well but watever he is all i noe was that i still misses him alot and dun seems like i am able to let him go ...

but no worries i'll not go n bother him ... now i was still thinkin should i pass him the present ??? should i tell him happy Bday ??? but u guys are rite ... so wat if i did all those ???? he had moved on ... even if he come back to me so wat ??? everything will b like a cycle rite ??? if only he was able to understand n change or else even if we got back together also pointless we'll still argue n stuff ...

anyway i straighten my hair cos dino says that he like me to straighten my hair ... that was also the reason why my hair was straighten n cut short ... now i decided to go back n curl my hair ... go back to the same old me that i use to be =)

anyway new year is coming ... i thought of the same old days that we use to have ... i mean every year how i need to go over to accompany him and his family and stuff ... everything in the pass seems so nice sweet and good ...

yet everything was jus the past ... i have understand everythin yet had he ??? mayb i was too late cos he had moved on ...